confessions of a bitchy housewife

so...this week has been one of those weeks that I could just feel irriatation coursing through my veins. The whining and complaining of three young children didn't help the situation much. Nor the fact that I was mentally prepared to be sitting on an island in the middle of a lake in the Adirondack mountains today....and, um yeah, obviously that didn't happen.

This all started toward the end of last week when I was on the verge of booking the campsite and was watching the forcast, which was looking very promising, and Brian told me to hold off that his co-workers father was sick and may need surgery. If that was the case we may not beable to go, because he would need to be at work. So optomistic, I get back on Reserve America website put in the campground, check on every single day from here to the end of July with a two night avaliability.....NOTHING! (irritated, yes. hoping we can still go, absolutely. Being totally selfish, yes. proud of that, no. ) So the days are ticking by...Brian still knows nothing concerning whether he will beable to leave work or not... the forcast is improving with every passing day the temperature is rising for the Saranac Lake region....the campsite we want is still open... my excitement to go somewhere other than Poolville Rd is mounting.... it now all comes down to the answer Brian will give upon is return from work (which would leave only hours to get packed so that we could hit the road by 8 A.M.) But....that answer was, Nope, not gonna happen.

I was dashed against the rocks of reailty, acted like a spoiled bart (I totally see where my children get it from, damnit if at 30 I didn't act just like them) I sulked and carried on all evening. At some point I sat down at the computer to pour over the campground again, seeing if by anychance there had been a cancelation. And low-and-behold an island had opened up and is currently avaliable this weekend and next week.

One of many reasons why I love Brian, he was supposed to play in a gold tournament this weekend, and unlike his selfish, bitchy wife, he is currently seeking someone else to take his place* so that we can go camping this weekend.


*seeing his unselfishness and the total control of his emotions, I feel very embarrassed and ashamed of the way I have behaved this week**

**I did confess to being a total brat and appoligized, but it surely didn't make up for the way I acted.